tired steampunk

Mood...: [ 7 ]

Feelin...: [ sleepy ]

Thinkin...: [ steampunk tech ]

Watchin...: [ caminho das indias (¬¬;; dont ask) ]

Readin...: [ the host, by stephenie meyer ]

Lissenin...: [ -- ]

Displayin...: [ gray t and beige shorts; social tennis and socks ]

Doin...: [ nothing of constructive ]

Quotin...: [ "are you ready to play the game... ready to lose it all... sure you want to play?" ]

ive been tired before.

mostly, ive been used to being tired.

but today, i feel a very different kind of tired;

as most of you know, i have insomnia. i can't sleep before around 4 or 5... and i slept at nearly 6am today.

i only went because i knew my grandmother would be waking up very soon.

said and done.

two hours later she wakes me up, threatening me with a cup of water.

bless her.

after a few times asking "why was she doing this to me" i gave up and decided to give her a hug.

quite unusual for me actually o_O

regardless. my sleepiness made me forget one crucial detail in the general picture.

she had a cup of water in her hands!!

the water did, in the end, find its way into my face.. i barely felt it, except the water went in my eyes... it burned O_O

im not sure if she wanted to laugh or to scream at me.. but she went to fill the cup with water again in the bathroom -- i closed the door behind her and ran away a few feet from her.. i kept looking between the cup filled with water to the top (the other one was only about a finger or two) and her face.. she looked incredibly angry...

i was sleepy. i was confused. and i was wet.

but i was not angry.

i was very surprised for not exploding at her... i just laughed at my silly, pathetic situation.

i kind of asked for it...

i wonder if i woke her up when i went to bed oO

how did she know?

had my cousin told her anything?

he really should learn to keep his mouth tightly shut... but i guess that's part of his programming.

our programming are exactly the same, only in the aspect that they are completely opposite.

im quiet. he's loud.

im intro. he's extro.

im annoying. he's twice as annoying.

... see the pattern?

anyway. that aside.

it all happened this morning and i only got two hours of sleep. hence the tiredness.

as for steampunk, i was scrambling through the internet searching for laptops to show my japanese friend (souka-san) what it was... apparently, they don't have the word "laptop" in japanese.

anyway.

i found something very.. very inspiring.

the answer for my technological problems in yannika:

STEAMPUNK TECHNOLOGY~!

why did i think of that while searching for laptops?

well. that's easy.

the thing actually WORKS.

what these japanese don't come up with, honestly...

on a side, and much smaller note.

i'm still waiting for my mother's reply on what she needs from me to get my family visa ready so i can come and go from england as i wish.

i really feel my nephew's absence. and i've never met my niece - i'll really enjoy seeing them both.

and the rest of my family.

my mother, in specific.

i don't often miss anyone or anything in my life, but the more i see that my time is getting close to leaving brasil, the more i miss my family.

it's incredible.

put aside the fact that i'm leaving one family and somewhat replace it for another.

but this family isn't my tribe.

i need to be with my tribe again, and i am nowhere near it.

my father's over a thousand km from me, my mother ten times that distance.

time's nearing.

x, out.